you know i turn 30 this year and i look over my life and i’m proud of myself for many reasons. i’m a mother of the beautiful intelligent madison rose. i’m married. i have my master’s degree. i started my own business(es) (shout out to my business partner). i have the best family ever! i’m saved, i’m the princess of the king of kings! all that’s great and i’m truly proud…in addition to all that as i’m steadily approaching 30 in october (the 3rd to be exact), i’ve finally realized i don’t care what others think about me! i’m a very honest transparent person and i can honestly say i used to care what others thought about me a lot! one example is, when i got married i got pregnant fast really fast a month and a half after i got married i was soooo worried people were going to think i was pregnant before i got married and i got married for that reason which was not true and yes a lot of people thought that. it made me furious! i cared so much when in actuality it was none of their business. i know i wasn’t pregnant( it wasn’t possible lol) and if i was so what. i cared about how people perceived me and what they thought about me. i wanted to seem like a good real, which i was but i made sure everyone knew. who caressssssssssss!!!!! i starting realizing this several years back and now i am at the 95% of i don’t care what people think about me meter lol (nobody doesn’t care 100% we are human lol and i do care about what my family and loved ones think but you get what i’m saying). but i truly could care less about the mass majority. i am human i make mistakes; i’m not perfect by a long shot. however, i’m okay with being perfectly flawed, learning from my mistakes, apologizing when necessary, standing up for what i believe in, and loving like i’ve never loved before. i don’t need any validation from any human being. this journey in life isn’t to be perfect that’s not possible! however, you should strive to be the best you that you can be! make the right decisions, treat people like you want to be treated, bring people to christ, love everyone even your enemies (god will handle them). life is not as complicated as we sometimes make it. it actually can be quite simple. we have a choice in everything. we choose to care what others think about us, we choose to make good or bad decisions. we choose to lie or tell the truth. we choose to be happy or sad. we have the power! now of course there are a lot of things in life that are beyond our control, well i’m not talking about those things! my granny, mother and auntie always told me this and it took me a while to get it, so now i got it! =) and it’s quite wonderful, i feel free! a lot of people will read this is say oh i never cared what people thought about me sure sweetie and if it’s true good for you. i’m just happy i’m free from caring and i want to encourage others who care to not care as much. i’m just trying to live for christ, be pleasing to the lord, do right by my daughter and family and be happy!
xoxoxo yours truly,
thee’ one and only chonita nicole
sending love, peace and positivity your way!